Brian Castelli – With His Heart

Living with Heart – my heart and His

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Last Sunday, our pastor was preaching from John 4. He stressed the importance of being satisfied in God. In fact, what he said was that we demonstrate God’s worth by how satisfied we are in Him.

Wow.

If I turn that upside down in order to apply it to my life, it means that when I seek my own satisfaction I am really telling the world that God isn’t so great. If I pursue my own way, seeking to satisfy my own needs, and failing to seek my satisfaction in Him, I am, in effect, saying that God can’t handle it. I’m telling the world that God needs a replacement – me!

This new way of thinking will undoubtedly help me as I work to remain faithful to Jesus.

Pour it on

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(Originally published May 2007)

This week I was on hand during the youth meeting at church, and the youth pastor did a great job talking about Romans 7 and 8. This is the passage where Paul writes about his struggles – how even though he’s been following Jesus for years he does what he doesn’t want to do [what he knows is wrong] and doesn’t do what he wants to do [what he knows is right]. Our pastor talked about the struggle we have between doing right and doing wrong. The most compelling part of the talk to me was when he started talking about alternatives to nasty behavior and music. He said that instead of dumping a lot of garbage into our brains through what we do, what we listen to, and who we hang around with, we should pour on the good stuff. If we fill ourselves with God’s word, good Christian music, and good Christian friends, we will displace those things that draw us away from God.

I must admit that it’s those times when I’m studying to teach a Bible class that I tend to do better. When I’m filling myself with God’s word, I am much less likely to struggle with temptation and sin. It’s like putting on armor.

My Hero

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A couple of months ago, I gave a speech about Polio at my Toastmasters club. I was working on an advanced storytelling module, and this project asked me to create a story from my own experience or from the life of someone close to me. I may not have all the facts straight, but I think I got most of this right. The text of my polio speech went something like this:

Title: Strength

8 year old Patricia Donnelly was having a wonderful afternoon. It was a Sunday, and she was attending a birthday party. I’m sure that she enjoyed that party as only an 8 year old can. But things started to go wrong by the time she got home. When Patricia returned from the party, she told her mother that her head hurt – she had a headache. Her mother instructed her to lie down and told her that she’d check on her later. When Patricia’s mother checked on her, however, her concern about the headache changed to fear. Now Patricia had developed a fever.

Her mother called the doctor. Patricia was taken to the hospital where tests proved that their worst fear was true.

Patricia’s world changed dramatically. Very soon, Patricia’s two sisters were sent to live with their aunt in a nearby town. Local health officials put a quarantine sign in the yard, and no one but medical professionals were allowed in or out. Word of Patricia’s condition spread quickly throughout the little town. Even the paper boy refused to cross the property line or take the money the family left out for him. Instead, he ran up and threw the newspaper as hard as he could.

Does this sound like the plot of some bio-terror made-for-TV movie? Or some futuristic story of a biological agent that was accidentally unleashed on an unsuspecting population? Well, this story is true, and it took place almost 60 years ago. The disease that wracked Patricia Donnelly and so frightened her small Midwestern home town was Polio.

We don’t hear much about Polio today. It’s been extinct in the US since the 1960’s. But back in the 1930’s, 40’s and 50’s, parents across this country braced themselves for an annual summertime epidemic. For most of those years, no one knew what caused it. No one knew how it spread. No one knew why it primarily attacked children. And there was no cure. Fear and hysteria reigned. Communities closed their swimming pools and cancelled their Little League baseball programs in efforts to reduce the spread of the disease.

But back to Patricia’s story. Shortly after the fever appeared, the disease attacked her central nervous system. One of her legs went limp and useless. She could no longer walk. Once the fever broke, the disease had run its course. She was moved to St. Francis Hospital in Peoria, IL, some 60 miles from home. There she spent time in a special children’s ward for Polio victims.

Patricia’s parents were not well off. They didn’t own a car and were dependent on trains and rides from friends and neighbors to visit her. Patricia told me that when her mother wasn’t around, she cried and cried and cried. It was a very tough time for her and her family.

In those days, there was no physical therapy. After a couple of surgeries to repair a condition called drop-foot, where the muscles in the leg are not strong enough to lift the front of the foot off the ground, and to install a small steel plate in her leg, Patricia’s doctors had done all they could. They sent her home.

Patricia could not walk. She crawled around the house, dragging her useless leg behind her. She could not attend school, so the local school system provided a tutor to help her keep up her studies. In the face of these obstacles, a weaker person would have given up. But Patricia was strong. Patricia slowly, gradually, courageously taught herself to walk again. The disease left her with a permanent limp, but she was walking! By the time her friends entered high school, Patricia was right there with them! She was a good student. She graduated from high school, worked for a time in a bank, met and married Al Castelli, and raised three children- one of them is me. Yes, Patricia Donnelly, now Pat Castelli, is my mother.

Mom is one of the strongest people I know. As I was growing up, she seemed just like every other mom on the block. I didn’t really think twice about her limp, nor did I realize the daily example of strength and perseverance she was giving us kids. She loved us and cared for my brother and sister and me as any mother would. One of my most vivid childhood memories is of Mom, my sister and I in the house where I grew up. A tornado was approaching in the midst of a horrific thunderstorm. Lightning flashed, thunder pealed, and the rain and wind pelted the outside of the house. The warning sirens were blaring outside, the radio was broadcasting a nearly constant string of messages urging us to take shelter immediately, and it sounded to my tiny ears like the house was about to collapse. I was scared down to the soles of my feet. I frantically asked Mom, “What will we do if the tornado hits our house?” Mom said, “If the tornado hits the house, I will cover you with my body to protect you.” I really believed her. And I still do. She would have done it!

You see, Mom lives her life not as a disabled person, but as a person who happens to have a disability. When I asked her about her Polio in preparation for this speech, she told me that she really has never thought about it. She doesn’t live her life in despair over Polio. She’s too busy living! She has too much to do!

These days, the Polio still wears on Mom. She is suffering from Post-Polio Syndrome, the result of almost 60 years of the muscles that survived the disease pulling extra duty. They are tired. She’s following the prescribed “brace and pace” method of coping. She wears a leg brace and she rests more often than she used to. But her spirit, her strength, is undiminished. And her example, her positive influence on her children and grandchildren, will continue for generations to come.

I highly recommend a movie called Saints and Soldiers. It’s an excellent WWII flick. It won “Best Picture” accolades at 11 minor film festivals in the US and Europe. This is the best movie you haven’t heard about because there are no big-name stars in the cast. Saints and Soldiers is not a vehicle for a box office champion. It succeeds on the quality of the writing, acting and directing. Imagine that!

The synopsis of the movie, taken from www.saintsandsoldiers.com is:

“‘Saints and Soldiers’ is a dramatic, intense and heroic WWII film about members of the Greatest Generation struggling to be both good men and good soldiers.

In mid-December 1944, while Hitler’s army blitzkriegs through the Ardennes Forest in Belgium, American sharpshooter Corporal Nathan Greer, known as Deacon, finds himself held captive with over one hundred other American soldiers in a snow-covered field.

As panic and confusion ensue, the German soldiers open fire on the American prisoners, in the historical event now known as the Malmedy Massacre. Greer, his friend Gordon Gunderson, and a handful of others escape the massacre by hiding in the nearby woods.

The small band of soldiers come across a stranded British intelligence officer with valuable information to be delivered to Allied forces, further upping the stakes of their already dangerous situation.

With few weapons, no food and a strained camaraderie, this tiny band must take on the unforgiving winter to fight their way back to Allied territory.”

Saints and Soldiers is rated PG-13 for war-related violence. There is quite a bit of death and blood, but the language is mild and there is no sex/ . This isn’t your typical “shock and awe” Hollywood film. It’s well done.

The synopsis talks about there being a “strained camaraderie” among the men. The most interesting example to watch is the tension between Deacon and the medic, Steven Gould. Deacon is a Bible-carrying former missionary who believes because of what he’s seen while Gould is an atheist who doesn’t believe because of what he’s seen. Their relationship is one of several sub-plots that help make this movie well worth watching.

If you want to see heroes, this is the movie for you.

Wild at Heart

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I gave a copy of John Eldredge’s Wild at Heart to a friend today. As I considered the gift, I thought back to what I find so compelling about the book. Look around! You will see that God has created mountains to high that men can barely climb them! He’s created oceans so vast and deep that men can’t cross them or descend their depths without complex machines. The jungles and forests are alive with wild creatures. The snow and the wind and the rain beat down upon the earth. Stand in the middle of a thunderstorm and be awestruck! You can’t come to any other conclusion than this: God’s creation is wild, dangerous and uncontrollable! If the creation is wild, it stands to reason that the creator is wild, dangerous, and uncontrollable. (When was the last time *you* could control God?)

Check this out: The Bible says that we were made in God’s image. If God is wild, dangerous and uncontrollable, that means that we share some of those same characteristics. We are wild at heart.

Eldredge rightly points out that this wild nature is not an excuse to be brutes or uncivilized. It is simply an acknowledgment that we were built for more than just sitting in Sunday School. Sunday School is very important, and there is a time and place for it. There is also a time and place for being out in God’s creation and connecting to Him in a way we can’t otherwise. There is also a time and a place for discovering our purpose, for sticking our necks out to take a chance on Jesus.

Wild at Heart is about purpose. We each have a specific battle to fight. Satan is working hard to keep us from finding our missions, from following God on the path for which we were made.

Wild at Heart is about reclaiming our true natures and getting in touch with the purpose for which we were made. Can you imagine a better way to live?

Not a quitter

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I was talking to my dad on the telephone the other day. We were discussing my daughter’s move to another state, how it made me feel, and what the future might hold for her. My dad reminded me that I had moved to another state shortly after getting married. After I had been away from home for a few months, I called him and asked, “You wouldn’t think I was a quitter if I came back home, would you?”
I have no specific memory of that event, but I believe it to be true. And, shortly after that conversation, we moved back home. I was full of false hope about what life in that other state would be like. When I got there, I found out that I was wrong.
My searching didn’t end there. I kept looking for an easy fix, a quick way to “success”, whatever that meant to me back then. I discovered that, except in a few extremely rare cases, there is no quick way. Success in whatever form you strive for takes hard work and patience with at least a few failures.
Tom Peters, a business guru that I deeply respect, claims that one of the prerequisites for fantastic, mind-blowing success is one or more horrible failures. It is in the hotbed of trial and error, especially error, that the most successful among us are trained.

The Marker Sermon

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At MFUGE in Charleston in the summer of 2007, the camp pastor was Walt Barnes, Director of BLIHP (By Living in His Presence) Ministries. (See www.thewalter.org) Pastor Walt presented a sermon on Tuesday night of the week I was there that rocked some people’s worlds.

Pastor Walt used colored markers – green, yellow, gray and black – as an object lesson. He held up a green marker and said that the green represents a Christian that is on fire for Jesus. The yellow marker represents someone who was once a green marker but has gotten comfortable. They are saved, but they have lost the fire and the passion with which they formerly pursued Jesus. The gray marker represents someone who is faking it, just going through the motions. They look saved on the outside. They go to church and do all the outward things one might expect, but inside they are disconnected from Jesus. The black marker represents those who do not follow Jesus at all. They aren’t faking it, but they aren’t getting it, either.

Pastor Walt told a number of amazing stories to enhance the imagery of the markers.

Paul McLeod is the proprietor of Graceland, Too, a personal memorial to Elvis Presley he maintains in his home. (See http://www.roadsideamerica.com/attract/MSHOLgracelandtoo.html) Mr. McLeod has dedicated his life to Elvis, staying open 24 x 7, 365 days a year, choosing Elvis over saving his marriage, and choosing to miss his mother’s funeral in case someone might want to see his Elvis memorial. McLeod once said that he would gladly die to bring Elvis back to life. This man has passion. McLeod has no problem telling anyone who will listen about Elvis. How does this compare to my willingness to tell the people around me about Jesus? Am I a green marker, ready to tell anyone and everyone about my Savior? Or am I yellow, holding back on my passion?

Think about the hottest sports rivalries in the country. I live in NC, and the Duke-UNC basketball rivalry has to be one of the most contentious. When the teams play, emotions run high. The season rises or falls based on the outcome of their games against one another. You know that the avid fans of the winning team shout and whoop and holler! They are in everybody’s face about their team and their win. They have passion. How does this compare to my willingness to tell people about Jesus’ victory? Am I a green marker, spreading the Good News to all? Or am I a yellow marker, comfortable in my church pew and Sunday School class?

Pastor Walt made many kids sit up and take notice. This is one far-too-yellow adult who took notice, too.

As we headed to MFUGE the summer of 2007, I had Lou (Not his real name) in my sights. Although Lou, a 9th grader, put on a “good” show for us at church, I had it from a reliable source that his behavior in school was horrible. He’d sit in the back of the class and mouth off to the teacher. He’d yell at her to shut up. He’d regularly get sent out of the room where he’d stand and bang on the door to get back in. My plan was to try to get Lou one-on-one to have a discussion about his dual personality.

God got there first.

Lou was deeply affected by the Colored Marker sermon (see next post). That night, Lou spoke to our youth pastor and committed his life to Jesus Christ. We started to see changes in Lou that very night. He ended the week at camp by sharing a story of how he led a little boy to make the same commitment to Jesus that he had made.

Lou followed up his camp experience by coming forward at invitation time at our church last Sunday. He came forward to make his commitment public and to ask the church to hold him accountable.

I spoke to Lou on my way out of church on Sunday. I reminded him that he is a new creation – in every part of his life. He is now going to behave differently at home, school, and around his friends. He agreed with me.

Isn’t it just like God to already be working in an area that I thought needed him?

Change

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I read an excellent quote earlier this week:

To improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often.

- Winston Churchill

Think about it!

Raising Kids

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A woman asked me if she was crazy for being all upset about the fact that her kids were getting independent. They are two and four, and “independent” means potty trained. The questoion gave me a chance to consider how I felt about my own children.

My kids are much older than hers, but I can remember well the feelings that she described. When they were small, they depended on my wife and I for everything. As they became more and more independent, it felt, to me, like something was being taken from us. I don’t think it’s crazy to feel this way.

The good news is that these feelings didn’t last. Both of her kids are very small. We all are growing as parents while they are growing as children. When they are small, it’s still very early in this process.

The Bible says many things about raising children. One of the principles that is clearly outlined in its pages is the concept of preparing our kids to become God-followers on their own. In the same way that we train them to tie their shoes and brush their teeth, we are to teach them about God to prepare them for the day when they must make their own choices – will they follow God or not? As such, as much as it pains us, our job as parents is to train them for making adult choices. We simply must put aside our own feelings of wanting them to forever be our little babies and equip them to be functioning adults.

I can’t site a verse to support this, but I believe that teaching our children to make good decisions is our #1 job as parents. Since we almost always get them as little babies, it’s a long, slow process of teaching them to walk, go potty, tie shoes, do homework, read the Bible, pay attention in church, drive responsibly, know how to pick a girlfriend/wife, etc.